“ The Eleven disciples set out for Galilee, to the mountain where Jesus had arranged to meet them. When they saw him they fell down before him, though some hesitated…”
– Matthew 28:16
This last line of the Gospel strikes me so much today. It’s noted that some of the disciples are hesitant when kneeling/falling before Jesus. Obviously, they aren’t fully convinced of who He really is*. They have doubt in their hearts that He really is the Christ, the Messiah the Saviour.
It’s an easy temptation to criticize the disciples for being so slow to believe. I mean, they literally walked and talked and lived alongside Him ! They saw with their own eyes the miracles, the wonders, the love… how could they hesitate?
There are probably several reasons, but I think this is about a lack of faith and trust. Those hesitant disciples didn’t trust the actions, words and deeds of Christ completely*. They were yet to fully believe in Christ.
And isn’t it with us! Despite the miracles that Christ has orchestrated in our lives, the beauty, the blessings, the consolations… we often hesitate when approaching Him. We doubt His love, question His plans, forget His goodness..
So I think today is a beautiful reminder to come confidently before the Lord and bow before Him. To surrender ourselves before He who Is. To come unhesitatingly before Jesus Christ in faith!
* I believe that the disciples came to a more perfected and trusting faith in Christ as time went on.