no hesitations ✝️

“ The Eleven disciples set out for Galilee, to the mountain where Jesus had arranged to meet them. When they saw him they fell down before him, though some hesitated…”

– Matthew 28:16

This last line of the Gospel strikes me so much today. It’s noted that some of the disciples are hesitant when kneeling/falling before Jesus. Obviously, they aren’t fully convinced of who He really is*. They have doubt in their hearts that He really is the Christ, the Messiah the Saviour.

It’s an easy temptation to criticize the disciples for being so slow to believe. I mean, they literally walked and talked and lived alongside Him ! They saw with their own eyes the miracles, the wonders, the love… how could they hesitate?

There are probably several reasons, but I think this is about a lack of faith and trust. Those hesitant disciples didn’t trust the actions, words and deeds of Christ completely*. They were yet to fully believe in Christ.

And isn’t it with us! Despite the miracles that Christ has orchestrated in our lives, the beauty, the blessings, the consolations… we often hesitate when approaching Him. We doubt His love, question His plans, forget His goodness..

So I think today is a beautiful reminder to come confidently before the Lord and bow before Him. To surrender ourselves before He who Is. To come unhesitatingly before Jesus Christ in faith!

* I believe that the disciples came to a more perfected and trusting faith in Christ as time went on.

baby love ♥️

It’s hard to know,

How beautiful,

New life can be,

Until you see;

Your own baby,

Between your arms.

Their perfect face,

A sign of grace.

This tiny one,

You hold so close,

Has stole your heart,

Right from the start.

rooted 🌳

I would like to share a short bible verse that brings me such hope and peace! I’ve received this verse countless times over the past year through Mass, morning prayer, devotions etc. Perhaps it will speak to you, too?

“He is like a tree planted by water,
that sends out its roots by the stream,
and does not fear when heat comes,
for its leaves remain green,
and is not anxious in the year of drought,
for it does not cease to bear fruit.”- Jeremiah 17:8

God calls us to be rooted in the waters of his love and his very self. He calls us to profound trust in him, especially when the heat and trials of this life come ( which they will!). We need not fear, for if we have planted ourselves in him, nothing can harm us. We will bear fruit of love, virtue, and good works.

I don’t know about you, but this is a message that comforts me so much in a world that is very dark at times. We have so much reason to hope and rejoice🌱

reminders ♥️

In times where we feel,

God isn’t around.

When broken and bruised,

No hope to be found.

Just stop and look round,

At those that you love.

Your family and friends,

Were sent from above.

Their smile and their souls,

The hearts that they bear,

Moments together,

Are gifts that they share.

God’s voice can be soft,

At times hard to hear.

But we know his love,

In those that are near.

third trimester thoughts 💭

Being pregnant is such a beautiful adventure! It is a 40 week rollercoaster ride both physically and emotionally. Approaching the end of my third trimester, I find myself reflecting on the past months of pregnancy, and how I’ve grown ( literally and figuratively speaking haha!) as a person, a woman and a mama.

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Just a few little lessons/blessings/take aways that I thought I would share. Regardless of if you are pregnant or not, I think these can be appreciated by all:

  1. People love babies/new life- The degree of friendliness/love/generosity that I have received throughout my pregnancy, has increased with each passing month. The bigger I am, the friendlier people are!! The respect and love that total strangers ( and friends/family) have showered on me, is a testament to the power and sanctity of life. Humans are designed to welcome and love new life, and they do it without even realizing it.
  2. Pregnancy is proof that God exists- If you don’t believe that God is real, just watch the process of a growing baby in utero. It’s the most amazing and underrated miracle taking place every day around the world. The fact that this tiny, perfect, functioning human life grows from the fusion of a sperm and egg and is able to live in a woman’s womb for 9 months…. is incredible. Even as I carry my own son, I am often baffled at God’s miraculous and mind-blowing creation. How can you explain such a perfectly designed process without God?!
  3. We need to advocate for life- It doesn’t matter if a baby was conceived 1 minute ago, or 9 months ago… a beautiful life with a unique soul was created, and has the right to live, like you or I do. The lie that has crept into our society, claiming that abortion is a women’s right, a freedom, a choice… has to change. These tiny miracles from God are our most vulnerable humans that ought to be protected, fought for and loved. Let us keep praying for an end to abortion, and the conversion of hearts who control legislature and media.

There have been so many other beautiful and memorable moments, but those are stories for another day! Perhaps we can take some time today to thank the Lord for the gift of our own lives, and the fact that our parents choose life. I think we often forget to thank the Lord for this most fundamental gift, and this miracle that we were apart of.

God bless!

hope is greater

A little while back, I wrote a post about the limitations of the English language, particularly for the word love. How is it possible that this rich verb can be used to describe the most beautiful union between man and women, while at the same time describing affection for a pair of shoes?!

It recently dawned on me, that the same goes for the word hope. This was the word I received for the new year, and the Lord keeps revealing to me how necessary hope is for the world- especially in these confusing times.

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It’s funny though, how often we use this word for everyday, simple experiences.”I hope it doesn’t rain today”, “I hope we make it on time”, I hope she likes the gift”… you get the idea!

Yet in reality, hope is so much more than these simple desires we ascribe to it. Here is what the Catechism of the Catholic Church writes about hope:

The virtue of hope responds to the aspiration to happiness which God has placed in the heart of every man; it takes up the hopes that inspire men’s activities and purifies them so as to order them to the Kingdom of heaven; it keeps man from discouragement; it sustains him during times of abandonment; it opens up his heart in expectation of eternal beatitude. Buoyed up by hope, he is preserved from selfishness and led to the happiness that flows from charity.

CCC #1818

Isn’t that beautiful!? Hope is like the compass that points us to our heavenly home! It’s the antidote against discouragement, depression, despair. Hope leads us to happiness, opens our hearts, and reminds us that we are journeying towards Christ himself.

It is my prayer, that you, wherever you are, and whatever you might be going through, are renewed and strengthened by this promise of authentic hope. Let us all fix our eyes above the current situation, and hope in what is to come, and in He who is the source of our hope.

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healing love.

O Spirit of God,

On us descend,

So that we might see,

The hearts to mend.

Those broken and lost,

Or crippled with fear.

The lonely and hurt,

O let them hear:

That God is alive,

His Word stands true.

His power to heal,

Is meant for you.

Full freedom from chains,

Authentic peace.

A place to call home,

Will never cease.

Let Christians proclaim,

This healing love.

A message of hope,

Sent from above.

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a story book life?

You know that cliche analogy that compares our lives to that of a chapter book? The many events that unfold in our lives can be likened to new chapters, filled with exciting adventures, new beginnings, tragedies, unexpected events, life, loss, despair and hope.

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I think this analogy works quite well, and over the past years, I’ve found myself starting several new chapters along the way. For the most part, I’ve been “writing” my chapter book since early adulthood ( well co-writing… I mean, God is the ultimate author and I’m doing my best to follow His plan). I’ve played the leading lady in this exciting novel of life, and generally speaking, my decisions have dictated the direction of the plot and adventure. It’s been a great and wonderful journey, and I’m so happy with the way things have unfolded for the most part….

But what about the chapters that we didn’t choose for?

What about those events that are thrust upon our story, that we never asked for, never planned on, never wanted? Those chapters that completely mess up the plot that we had anticipated and hoped for?

Of course, Covid would be the easiest example at the moment. But I also mean those personal crises that we all face throughout our lifetime. The moments that bring us to our knees, have us questioning God and His plans, have us searching for answers yet finding none.

I’m in one of those chapters at the moment, and it’s been extremely hard to accept. I’m going through a physical diagnose that I never imagined, which is causing me immense pain and discomfort most hours of the day. It’s something that I never dreamed would ” happen to me” and something that makes me angry at times. I’m sure if I asked you reading this, you could think of a time in your life that was similar. Perhaps it wasn’t physical but emotional, social, psychological etc.

So what now? Unfortunately, I don’t have the answer. I think that sometimes in life there are chapters that we just can’t disappear from. Where we can’t devise some amazing escape plan, because we have to live and fight through this chapter to the end.. .I’m trying to stay hopeful, stay faithful and stay positive. I do know that God is in control, even though it feels like I’m slipping from His hands at times. I know He doesn’t want our suffering, and that this pain can be redemptive and it can bear an eternal fruit.

To all of you suffering right now: I know I can’t take it away. Nor can anyone else. But I want to validate what you are going through and say that I’m sorry you are going through this. Remember that you ARE a beloved son or daughter of the King. You don’t have to force yourself to be happy when your hurting, but keep the hope and remember that this too, shall pass.

Much love,

Jenny

hello stars ✨

Hello stars, I’m still awake,

My thoughts so clear and deep.

Many hours will it take,

Till I am fast asleep?

Shining brightly in the sky,

I’m captured by your light.

Like a lantern I rely,

For you to guide my sight.

Soon enough the sun will rise,

And you will fade away.

Colours painted in the skies,

Will welcome the new day.