a little closer

Silent but fierce,

Interior war.

Trigger is loose,

Don’t want anymore.

Holding them back,

Demands all of me.

Words in my head,

Just want to be free.

Count your blessings.

But where do they hide?

Always choose joy.

That path I have tried.

Look to the cross:

More close than before.

See His pierced heart,

Do we still want more?

Look to the Cross,

More close than before.

 

 

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stepping stones

Being engaged is a dynamic, adventerous, challenging and joyful expereince. As the days of my engagement draw to a close, I am reflecting again on this theme of marraige and particularly, the sacrament of marriage.

Nowadays, there seems to be a profound misunderstanding of this coventant, and sacramental promise. Very often, a marraige is just an excuse for a super expensive and galmorous party (and after planning a wedding I see how one could go crazy with their bank account!), a pinterest-perfect event, or a commitment founded entirely upon emotional-love.

It seems to me that these popular ideas regarding marriage fail to understand the depth, magntiude, beauty, and mystery of the sacrament. A marriage is designed to be a beautiful union between a man and a woman, a fruitful and free relationship and a space of authentic joy. It is also however, a pathway to holiness. In mass the other day, our priest said,  ‘when we choose the path of love, we must pick up our cross’.  These crosses must call us out of ourselves; to grow in patience, self-giving love, compassion, forgiveness and humility. There are two people fighting for sanctity together. This battle can be messy, unclear at times, require healing from wounds, but this story can always end with victory!

I chose to share the following quote from the Cathecism of the Catholic Church. I think it nicely outlines how Christ can always be the anchor of a marraige. That no matter how weak, tired, sinful we are, if we let him, Jesus will carry our crosses and give the necessary strength for a joyful, lively, exciting, holy marraige. This is good, good news!

‘ This unequivocal insistence on the indissolubility of the marriage bond may have left some perplexed and could seem to be a demand impossible to realize. However, Jesus has not placed on spouses a burden impossible to bear, or too heavy – heavier than the Law of Moses. By coming to restore the original order of creation disturbed by sin, he himself gives the strength and grace to live marriage in the new dimension of the Reign of God. It is by following Christ, renouncing themselves, and taking up their crosses that spouses will be able to “receive” the original meaning of marriage and live it with the help of Christ. This grace of Christian marriage is a fruit of Christ’s cross, the source of all Christian life’ 

(CCC# 1615)

 

Our marraige is a stepping stone,

to sanctity and grace.

Our crosses are the only way,

we come to see His face.

Sin and weakness are close at hand,

though they define us not.

May truth and trust forever reign,

Let Christ transform our thought.

 

 

where i want to be

apart from you

I have nothing left.

apart from you

I am wandering.

apart from you

all is grey outside.

apart from you

words are empty now.

Let me write for you.

to be closer.

Let me speak about you.

to be closer

Let me search for you.

to be closer

enflame this desire.

kindle this love.

be all I need.

let me need all of You.

pursuing the positive

Thankfulness your hard to find,

In times that seem so dark.

Sadness creeps so quietly,

It tries to leave its mark.

Just like stains that never fade,

They always catch our eye,

Thankfulness your hard to find,

But if we only try.

Singing birds play music now,

The rain it makes us smile,

Nature is a masterpiece,

We stop to sit awhile.

Thankfulness your hard to find,

When we stop seeking you.

Light will always radiate.

And rays they will shine through.

moving upstairs

 

Form me,

mould me,

shape and craft me.

Breath of life,

in my lungs.

Guide me,

show me,

bring and lead me.

Breath of life,

in my lungs.

Take us,

hold us,

lead and bring us.

Breath of life,

in our lungs.

Be the flame

That burns within.

Be the flame

That leads to Him.

 

Mary Mother of Emmanuel

In this time of advent, we prepare as Mary did, to welcome Jesus. Through the Annunciation, Mary was accepting all that would take place in the life of her Son. His birth, childhood, mission on earth, miracles, persecutions, crucifixion, death, resurrection, ascension into heaven and sending of the Holy Spirit. Mary always endured these moments with perfect faith, hope and peace. I share this poem as a prayer of thanksgiving to Mary for her YES. By her openness to the Holy Spirit, she contributed to the redemption of mankind by giving life to Emmanuel; God with us.

Will we come to the humble cross,

And kneel at Mary’s side?

To contemplate this gruesome loss,

Our Savior who has died.

In silence do we bear the pain?

Submit to greater love.

To know this Lamb who has been slain,

Was sent from up above.

With eyes of Mary, let us see,

That light and hope remain.

His body hung upon the tree,

Will come to life again.

Oh Perfect Hope and Loving Heart,

Come to our aid we pray.

To never leave nor to depart,

But guide us on our way.

To you our Mother, Queen and Guide,

We give you all we are.

Into your heart, let us abide,

Most Holy Perfect Star.

 

only You may shine

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sacraments

Jesus in the Eucharist,

You are who I need.

Loving is not possible,

Less you take the lead.

All you are, you give to us,

Love and life and peace.

Teach us what it means to trust,

Faith to never cease.

Dwell in me, and I in you,

Sacred Heart Divine.

So that when I leave this place,

Only you may shine.

 

             Adoration of the Blessed Sacrament

Prayer of the Lamb

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Faith, GoodFriday, Triduum

Father forgive them, they do not know,

They can not see Your light.

Your Mercy and Love I’ve come to show,

Yet they search and seek to fight.

You are in I, and I in you,

I speak on your accord.

Your Word is right and it is true,

I come on earth as Lord.

To save them from all earthly sin,

From death and from their pain.

A battle Father, We will win,

For this is why I came.

Father, I’ve come to do your will,

But I know where it will lead.

I see the cross upon the hill,

My side, that it must bleed.

I love them so I give my life,

To bring them close to You.

No matter the sorrow and the strife,

This is what I’m sent to do.

When I will leave, the Spirit can come,

He will guide them in My name.

To understand where I came from,

That the Father and I are same.

With the Spirit we are unified.

Three persons yet one being,

This love in which we all abide,

Is source of all thats freeing.

Father, I’m Shepherd of the sheep,

May Your will be done today,

Pray for those who mourn and weep,

That they do not loose their way.

For I am the Truth and the Light,

I bring them all to You,

I will come again, enrobed in white,

To give them life anew.